I'm sorry. I just emailed Megan and called her a "stupid fascist" for making me cry with her gardening post. It's just that I could see so clearly what she was describing: you going on and on, extolling the virtues of the gardening bench as if you were selling it on an infomercial. You loved explaining things and showing off the features of gadgets.
And today's just one of those days that I wanted to pretend you didn't die, you know? I just wanted to take a break from it for a day. I went to the blog casually because Megan said she had posted, and I figured I'd give it a quick read. I've got a lot of other stuff I've been trying to sort through mentally today, and after spending all of the morning and the first half of the afternoon in the haze of a migraine, I've been trying to be productive this evening.
So it caught me by surprise to read Megan's post and to picture you so clearly, and to hear your slow voice, and to burst into tears. I guess today isn't, actually, a day in which you didn't die. There's no break from it, it still happened. And I still wish it hadn't. But, I'm sorry, Dad, that I called your other daughter (LFD) a stupid fascist. She knows I didn't mean it.
I'm still the MFD, right?
Love you.
a
And today's just one of those days that I wanted to pretend you didn't die, you know? I just wanted to take a break from it for a day. I went to the blog casually because Megan said she had posted, and I figured I'd give it a quick read. I've got a lot of other stuff I've been trying to sort through mentally today, and after spending all of the morning and the first half of the afternoon in the haze of a migraine, I've been trying to be productive this evening.
So it caught me by surprise to read Megan's post and to picture you so clearly, and to hear your slow voice, and to burst into tears. I guess today isn't, actually, a day in which you didn't die. There's no break from it, it still happened. And I still wish it hadn't. But, I'm sorry, Dad, that I called your other daughter (LFD) a stupid fascist. She knows I didn't mean it.
I'm still the MFD, right?
Love you.
a
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